SURRENDER

 

Abandonment with the rotten soul,

Drowned in loneliness

Smiling at my sadness

Only in my abandonment.

Despised in my shyness,

Ashamed of my cowardice.

I am guilty of falling in love

without permission of any god,

Sentenced not to touch you,

Not look at you

Without thinking about you

Forced to hate you

And not being able to do it.

Life smells of desire

and desire tastes like gall to me

because I only love you,

that life steals from me.

I have given up.

I'm exhausted from crying

bored of rowing,

without being able to reach your roadstead,

the cradle that rocked, calmed me,

and it made me laugh with joy.

There are no more forces, I'm leaving

let the stream crash,

that the seawall of hate

fray my soul

let me die of pain

But let the torture end

of not being able to make you feel

That I have always loved you.